For Him.

Talking to you feels like lying in bed after a long tiring day. Even for a short while, I got to know a pinch of your life - that somehow gives me an idea of your whole. Your existence. Meeting you was out of the blue, and being close to you was unplanned, but never did I question fate for that. Knowing about your existence fills an unknown part of me.

I was lonely, that's for sure. I was uncertain, that's for sure. I was unhappy, that's given.

If I will go back to the day when I met you, I will eventually tell myself to keep you already. Because right now, I started to realize and see how I became less of a loner, more certain, and eventually felt a little spark of happiness.

You are kind, I feel that.
You are wholesome, and I can attest to that.
You are handsome, and that's unquestionable.
You are cute, even if you don't do anything.

When you told me about how your years went through, I suddenly want to rushingly go beside you and hug you tight. I don't know what it is that I have to make you comfortable, but if all you need is to have me by your side - I will willingly stay while there's you that exist. I'll be willing to do it 'cause it's not only you who feels that way... I already did too. With you being honest, full of assurance, and just you being you is enough for me to say how you deserve to be loved.

For the man who makes me smile.
For the man who I will never get tired of.
For the man who assures me.
For the man who is enough.
For the man who I will love.
For the man I love.
For my man.
For Him,

Cheers to your existence that fills a part of me.
Cheers to your existence that removes my self-doubts.
Cheers to your existence which gives me a push every day.

Happy birthday, Love.


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It's been 3 years. We witness every angles we didn't know in the start before. It was magical, but futile to the point it hurts us both. I have to let you go, because I know I wasn't the right one you need. I was not capable of bringing you the endless smiles I imagined you to have. Hopefully this time, you experience all the goodness I once saw in my dreams that we're supposed to share.

All for you still. Until the end, still all for you.

I hope you keep the good memories.

For the man who made me smile. 
For the man who I was never tired of. 
For the man who assured me.
For the man who is still enough.
For the man who I will treasure.
For the man I loved.
For my that man.
For Him,

Thank you, Love.

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