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I always say, “Its okay to fall, we can still get up.” whenever I have a breakdown while doing something – which actually works. Back when I was in middle school, I used to soar as high as possible, I didn’t think of whatever anyone has to say because all I keep in mind that time, “I want to go up.” That was until I come into my senses. I started to realize I am not the center of anything nor anyone. But, I never blame myself thus I understand what happened – I just grew. Some people mistakenly believe that realizing that you made a mistake in the past means you are bad now.      “Never blame yourself for growing. Realizing you made a mistake at the past means you have learned from it.” Once we fall down, it’s either we can or we can’t stand up. Not all storms has a rainbow after. Not all problems has a solution to be done. Not all sadness requires happiness. And not all things will go the way we planned it to be. “It’s better to understand things rather than to hope endlessly.” It’s n

I told myself, I will focus on myself more - like, more of self-centered, me first and only, and all those to know me more. Yet to start of, I felt like it is unhealthy, so I go back to the start and just told myself to go with the flow and just think twice before doing a thing. This might be cliché, but I never run out of love thoughts. There is always a time where I suddenly daydream about those scenarios that I want to encounter. This might be because I am a bookworm or a writer, but the difference is that - I am the character. Although I always tell myself that it'll never happen, I also keep reneging and reasoning that it can't, but it might be. Some people told me that we are too young to feel butterflies in the stomach. I did agree. In fact, whenever that feeling of confusion rise - I do try to stop it and tell myself, "Nah. It's not real.". But as I keep on telling that to myself, I suddenly ask myself, "So when is the time it'll be fine and real?

When I see people at social media mentioning their friends and saying they are their “for keeps”, I find it interesting and cute, at the same time curious. What makes them think that those people are for keeps? Are they worthwhile? Are they fun to be with? Are they the ones who they cry on? I’m curious. I rarely open social media right now, but few hours ago I open it to see what is the current situation of our place. While scrolling I saw something that caught my attention – A schoolmate of mine share something about mental health. It caught my attention since I rarely see someone talking and discussing about mental health. I read what she said and it made me tear up. She stand against those people who are saying that depression and anxiety is just something that people made-up and thinks as if it is a nonsense. I don’t usually comment on posts, but I just feel like I need to thank her – thank her for understanding and thinking about what some people feel. I always keep in mind that w